Alright, too much going through my head this post has no topic and will probably end in confusion for both you and I. Here goes.
1. OKAY i have written about you a couple of times (nameless boy) maybe people are guessing who you are, hope not. Well, i saw your posts on your face book. I don't mean to be self absorbed or anything but i have a feeling they are about me. if they are then this is what i have to say. Yes, yes yes yes. I have never gotten over you. Your not always on my mind but your there whenever i think of 'boyfriend' I can see that you have changed since that day/s. Changed for the better, changed for me and I'm so happy that you did but now there is no point. I would be totally STOKED if we got together again and it was perfect before ..that stuff happened.. but we both know its close to impossible for that to happen again. I rate my friends higher than any boy and you cant understand. To be with you is to be without my friends, not just the girls but most guys will hate me too. And i just cant risk it. You would always say to me: If its love then no friends should stand in the way and they should be happy for us because we are happy. But it just doesn't work like that. I'm not sure if love is what we have/had, because well, I'm not sure what it is. Maybe i have just fallen for the bad guy in you? I don't want to lose you, i don't want to lose them, i don't want to choose.
2. I don't mean to come off as a massive flirt but i sort of am i mean, I'm single now so there shouldn't be a problem right? text text, poke poke, wink wink. I love to flirt. Makes me happy but sometimes i must admit i do take it too far. Don't judge me just on that.
3. I love my friends, i really do, but i cant find a group i can stay with. I'm a floater at school. One day ill be with the wogs, next with the Aussies etc etc. I cant say i don't hate it, i love being friends with people from most groups but i know for a fact that some girls don't want me sitting with them and their group. I don't belong. Not having a group means you get left out sometimes people plan things with the 'group' and i cant say I'm a part of it. If i get invited i feel like they HAD to invite me. Id rather not go but I'm too scared to confront them. I no i get bitched about, so does everyone else at st columbas but i cant Handel it.
4. Big post right here, don't judge me on this it stereotypes me, if i didn't no me and i read this id think I'm just and guy obsessed, selfish slut who is hated, but I'm not ah ah. Atleast i hope not.
