DISCLAIMER: I DONT EXPECT ANYONE TO READ THIS ITS LONG AND HARD TO MAKE SENCE OF. good luck :)
I do it every time, i think now Ive realised that i cant have a serious relationship with a guy. Its just not possible, there is obviously something wrong with me, I'm a commitment phob. But i always realise this at the wrong time. This time its exactly after Ive let him no I'm into him, hooked up, dated, were practically boyfriend-girlfriend everything seems to be perfect but its my worst nightmare. What was i thinking!? i mean i knew i didn't want a boyfriend but i thought this was different but its not, nothing can compare to what once was a perfect relationship that got screwed up and thrown in my face just like that. Since then boyfriends were danger zones. I cant help liking someone but i can stop myself from falling too fast. How am supposed to let you know how i feel now that I've lead you on believing you will get a relationship out of me but I'm not gonna lie, I'm scared shitless. Somehow i have to let you know, but right now its impossible. I have gone over endless conversations in my head to let you no this but none are good enough. I wish you could read my mind because my words don't come out right. I like you i really do, it kills me to say this but i cant love you and too me that's what a relationship is about.
