Times like these you can really fucking see who your true friends are. She should of known, he could of seen and they should of came. I really dont know what to do i just want to cry but i know im better than that. This is just shit, and just in tiem for my birthday. Once again its going to shit. Somthing like this happens once a year always in time for this day. I bring my hopes up thinking this would be a good day and its only going to be shit. Its just like any other fucking day of the year people act fake and you act happy that everyones got attention on you for that 5 seconds where they say happybirthday then the day is back to normal. You dont feel older, or better or anything. I dont even want presents, i dont want it to be celebrated. Tonight im just going to have to smile even though thats the last thing i want to do.. so heres so me. Just another fucking day. Its going to be as shit as the rest.